Dear Paul, That’s OK. I was very happy to be an observer on Friday night. I am usually a little cool in the room when we meet for Deeksha. The first thing I noticed, other than the high energy in the room, was the fact that I had to take off my light wrap that I was wearing. As I sat quietly I started feeling an intense heat that felt like a burning… only it didn’t hurt. This lasted quite a while and was kind of evened out by the time the blessings were started.
I was glad that I had already experienced several Wednesdays before this Friday. The first few times I felt very teary and much ‘unexplained’ sadness. Friday I was conscious of the sadness being gone and a blissful feeling replacing it. I did have the tears when they played the John Lennon song. That has always been a favorite for me. It is such an amazing reminder of the ‘oneness’ of all.
I had ordered the book, ‘Awakening Into Oneness’ by Arjuna Ardagh so I have started reading it since Friday. I notice when I read it that I can feel the energy of the book/words or ?? the kundalini energy. I have been very aware of judgments… judgments of all kinds… I am aware of not feeling much judgment as I go about my days. There simply is not that energy of evaluating.
Well, I have been feeling a need for more rest… like I need to just lie around, or even sleep. I didn’t really connect that with Friday night until now. Do you think they are related? I appreciate this opportunity to share experiences. …thank you, Paul
Paul’s reply: Thank you for your thoughtful comments. They are much appreciated.
People have reported all sorts of experiences in the room that Friday night, including the feeling of heat. It’s all just energy, after all. Everyone experiences different things at different times after receiving the Oneness Blessing. Some are sad, like you. Others may even cry or tear up. Still others may be moved to laugh, get angry, become euphoric, etc. It’s all just processing. I think most of us really resonate with the John Lennon song, Imagine. It’s so simply profound.
I have ordered the book “Awakening Into Oneness” in bulk so that it will be available at our weekly and once monthly Oneness Blessing events. Arjuna truly did a wonderful job with both the book and the 4-DVD set by the same title. It really relates the truth about the Oneness Blessing and how various people the world over have experienced their own transformations through awakening into oneness. The energy you speak of is the kundalini energy being triggered. No worries. It’s all OK. And you are simply becoming “the watcher” or “the observer” as those ancient mind “judgments” flow pass your consciousness… You are getting closer to your awakening. Just keep getting your Oneness Blessings when you can… it really speeds up the whole process.
Many report feeling the need for rest… and a lot of it! On the Saturday following, I took Bhavani and Buddha to DFW Airport and we left the house at 6:15AM. Later that day, I just couldn’t stand it any more and I had to sleep for the rest of the day. I was so tired… and was so for several days afterward. That is not unusual. We’re all just processing the energy transfer that took place. Remember that when we give you the Oneness Blessing, we are also receiving it much more intensely than what we are able to transfer to you. Most of us gave about 50 Oneness Blessings that night… can you imagine how much energy that was for us Oneness Blessing facilitators? It was just awesome. Thank you for being a part of it all. You and all those present at any of our events are our blessing! Namaste.
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Dear Paul, As you know, I first attended an all day Deeksha event in May. I’ve attended a few more weekly events since then. From the very beginning, I could feel the movement of energy washing through my head and body during the hands on Deeksha. I’ve always been very sensitive to energy, so I wasn’t very surprised that I felt something. It was the after effects that began to raise flags in my mind. I began to recognize synchronicity in a way that I had never before been aware. I won’t mention all of the things that have happened because I don’t want this to sound too far fetched. I’m sure you understand how intense things can get, miraculous even.
I also began to notice my life reorganizing itself quite naturally in a way more conducive to healing in my close personal relationships. This is an area that I was somewhat weary to inspect. I know that this is Bagavan’s main thing, but I wasn’t sure I wanted to heal my relationships. I wasn’t sure I had any more emotional reserves left to deal with the drama typically expressed in the neurotic bargaining sessions that had passed for interpersonal communication. After Deeksha, things started to change. It just got easier. Understanding myself and others became more straight forward and simple. I began to see my habitual patterns more clearly, and in seeing my own, there is a natural ability to understand that another person may be dealing with involuntary patterns of habit as well. I stopped taking things so personally. This helps me to see and accept people as they are, no matter what pattern they may be presenting in the moment. In a way, I accept them by accepting me.
I feel a connection with Amma-Bagavan and the Moolamantra. I can’t say that that’s from Deeksha. I have a tendency to feel and connect in palpable ways to things with which I resonate. (redundant, I know) I feel that Amma-Bagavan and Moolamantra are both everything, the universe and me. I have not had an experience of this being the case, but I feel this way, and I would say more so for the Moolamantra. This could simply be a game of logic. It’s not like I’m having any supernatural experience or anything. Understanding the meaning of the mantra simply makes it easier to feel into this reality as I chant it. Either way, it’s a very comforting way to feel. I like it.
This past Friday’s Oneness Celebration was, by far, the strongest energetically of any of the Deeksha events I’ve attended. I felt the charge of calm, if that makes any sense, as soon as I walked into the room. The pre-Deeksha relaxation period left me feeling deeply at peace with no motivation to open my eyes any more than was absolutely necessary. The room was full and I was seated toward the back of the room. I felt that I was receiving Deeksha before anyone ever made it to me. It actually started before the Deeksha providers started giving Deeksha. When the first provider made it to me, it was the typical warm tingling wash through the brain and down into the body. It actually feels really good, and the strength of it lingers even after the provider has moved on. It feels like a set of hands are still in place on my head. When the next provider made it to me, something different happened. I felt a strong flow of energy, and out of nowhere, I started to cry. There was no mental story, nor was there really any sad emotion. I was just gently sobbing for no known reason, and it felt really good. This would return periodically during the event. I think I had about six Deekshas in all that night, if I counted correctly.
I also get feelings that are not really feelings. It’s more like I feel into the space within during the hands on part, noticing the energy and allowing attention to follow it inward. I feel to a certain (space?) then, out of nowhere, my body jerks. It’s happened every time I’ve received Deeksha. I’m not real sure why it does it. From what I know, these jerking movements of the body and neck are called Kriyas. I’m going to assume that’s it, and leave it alone. These Kriyas go on after the hands of the provider are long gone. This happened in a much more forceful way during the Friday event. I had an experience at one point where I could feel the entire surface area of my heart organ in the left side of my chest. It was a strange feeling that was almost like it was surrounded by a heat that wasn’t really heat. Then there was a sharp piercing point on the right side of my chest, all the while I felt a warm vibrant pressure in the center of my chest, the heart chakra. There were a few piercing type pains that would come, intensify and release that would happen in my arms, legs, feet the base of my groin, etc. Since my third Deeksha, I have had a feeling of heat flare-ups on the sole of my right foot. This subsided after Friday.
The strangest of all the sensory phenomena has to be the feelings I have in my brain. It can be scary at times. I just surrender to the wisdom of the Divine on this one. During Deeksha I sometimes get the same searing or piercing type sensations in my head that I get in my body. It’s just a bit more disconcerting when it’s happening in your brain. I can feel pressure and energy moving in my head, and it doesn’t stop when the Deeksha stops. I feel it all week, all times of day. It’s more intense if I meditate, so I mostly forgo any further meditation. I feel like I’m meditating all the time. This sensation was stronger Friday, and the after effects are much stronger right now.
I can’t say that I’ve noticed much difference in my life since Friday. I’m a lot calmer when it comes to settling disagreements. I usually listen to NPR or music in my car, but I find myself so tuned in to that feeling in my head that I forget to turn anything on. I’m where I was going before I realize that I was in total silence and peace. I barely notice that I’m driving sometimes. Don’t worry, it feels pretty safe. I’ve noticed that people seem to be picking up on something. They tend to dump their un-owned positivity onto me, and some dump their un-owned negativity. They both amount to the same in the end. I’m just able to watch it all and watch myself react in different ways in the mind without actually doing anything. Not all the time, but mostly. Observation, in this way has allowed for the resolution of these situations, the processing of these energies to take place in ways that my habitual patterns would never have allowed. I feel that I have seen enough of what some might call miracles to know that I can trust the Divine Love that is dancing all of us alive. There’s really nothing to worry about. Thank You…
Paul’s reply: Well, you kind of said it all. It’s all just processing and you’re very aware of what is going on in your body and around you. Moving into being “the observer” is a real blessing as you no longer have to buy into the idea that those thoughts are your thoughts… or that the words and actions of others are theirs. We are not our bodies, our minds or our thoughts… so when we’re ready, we find that it’s OK and natural to just be “the observer” sans any judgments. I’m happy for you that your relationships are working out better now. Just keep receiving the Oneness Blessing and your transformation continues even more rapidly. Many Thanks for your thoughtful comments. I hope to see you again soon. Namaste.
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We’re anxious to hear from you about your personal experience with the Oneness Blessing (Deeksha)! To contribute, send your comments to Paul Carlson at: paul@deeksha-dallas.com. Many Thanks to all for sharing their thoughtful comments.