Paul, So, I’m finally getting around to writing down some of my experiences…
I feel so much different since my first Deeksha back in January. Overall I am calmer, have a larger perspective on things, and am more in-tune with myself and others. And at the last intensive during one of the smirana Deekshas I had a very interesting experience – I was getting a visual of riding on a roller coaster track and it starts tilting upwards until it is vertical. Going faster now, suddenly it levels back out into this bright yellow light that suddenly turns intense white as a wave of energy pulses through me - fun times! Usually after Deeksha I feel lighter and bubbly. I used to go to Kriya Yoga meditations and would sometimes feel this way, but it was very difficult – but I thought Kriya was the fastest road to enlightenment. Imagine my joy when I learned of Deeksha! Just this past Wednesday I felt the overwhelming urge to smile throughout most of the session.
Years ago I took a few courses at a place called The Monroe Institute. The focus of their programs is on getting in touch with the higher-self and journeying out-of-body. They facilitate this experience for people by using a technology (tones of different frequencies in each ear) they call hemi-sync to synchronize the two hemispheres of the brain and draw the brain waves into alpha, delta, and even gamma states. This is combined with guided meditations and the different levels of consciousness are numbered, making for easy recall eventually without the hemi-sync. So one Wednesday during Deeksha I decided to go to ‘Focus 27′ – the place where people go just after death to transition into the belief system territories or elsewhere. (For perspective, ‘Focus 1’ is waking consciousness, ‘Focus 10’ is mind-awake body-asleep). And it was in this 27 state that I had a very powerful experience of joy. I left that night feeling like I was driving under the influence!
So overall I am doing a lot better, and Deeksha has played a large part in it I think, though it’s hard to make the distinctions. But I also still suffer from rough times. My wife and I have had bitter fights and been very close to separating, I have had outbursts of anger bordering on rage, severe bouts of depression, and recently I was very sick and decided I didn’t want to live anymore. Such wild swings! And it seems the low times are even harder because the high times feel so wonderful. I know these last negativities will be loved away eventually, but do you think something like hypnotherapy or regressions would help things now?
Thank you for the work you put into organizing all this. It is much appreciated! Love and Light…
Paul’s reply: I always find the experiences of others most interesting! We all experience our journey into The Awakening (enlightenment) in different ways. Having a smiling reaction is not-at-all uncommon. Almost any emotion or experience can come forward while you process. I too had studied some of the Monroe Institute offerings years ago… and I’ve had a Hemi-sync machine since the 80’s… When I first returned from India and was giving some of my first larger group Deekshas, I too would feel almost as if I was on some kind of mind altering substance… and would actually have to ask Bhagavan to tone it down a bit so I could drive home!
I’m glad that you’re generally doing better. The ‘rough times’ you speak of are a part of the process that’s going on now worldwide. And it’s not just those who are experiencing Deeksha who are going through this. It’s many in our population who are experiencing heavy processing at this time. I’m glad that you personally are aware that you are not your body, nor are you your thoughts or your mind… so you don’t have to ‘buy-in’ to those thoughts, emotions and feelings. Nor are you responsible for them. Nor is there anything to forgive. Just watch them and let them pass. Many of us are moving through our ‘dark night of the soul’ at this time.
An early Christian Mystic, St. John of the Cross first coined that phrase, “the dark night of the soul.” Actually, it’s “the dark night of the senses / soul,” to be more specific. Talk about synchronicity? There is a wonderful article about this very topic that I had posted just last Friday at: http://deeksha-dallas.com/articles/the-dark-night-of-the-senses-soul/. I think you and others who are experiencing challenges may get a lot out of reading it.
As you know, I’m a Certified Clinical Hypnotherapist and have been involved with hypnosis since 1976. I do think that a hypnosis process called ‘clearing work’ will benefit you in the sense that it will help you to move through this process more quickly without having to experience all the drama, but that choice is yours to make. Bhagavan says that life is relationships… so working through your relational concerns now is vastly preferable to just escaping them. After all, if you don’t deal with them now, you’ll just have to deal with them again in the future. I’m also glad that you realize that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to talk, you can call me to discuss any of this further. Hang in there. Namaste.
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Paul, Since I have experienced [Oneness] Deeksha I have noticed a “shift” in various ways:
1) Creativity – While preparing a “love/scrapbook” for my niece, I experienced a surge in creativity. The ideas seem to flow easily and unobstructed. Prior to Deeksha, creativity was there but not on the level it is now. The ideas were so profound. The book created a literal “sensation” when it was presented at the bridal shower. It “touched” the hearts of all causing them to go within themselves and “see” from a higher place. The phone calls and compliments were not like anything I had experienced in all the books that I previously made.
2) Experienced SELF - A couple of days after the Deeksha celebrating SRI BHAGAVAN ‘S birthday, I woke up feeling “alive” and ‘full” inside like my real SELF. It was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I was filled with warm joy and love. It was incredible. I felt so happy. I am still growing and learning but I now have a reference point to compare to. I know what it feels like to be my true SELF.
3) Lost and Found – While working on a very important project, I misplaced something that was essential to the project. I asked “SRI” to help me find it and in no more than 5 seconds, it “showed up.”
4) Oneness – I have always embraced the oneness truth but after Deeksha, I “feel” it on a deeper level and I find myself so much more aware of staying out of judging others. I am teaching myself tools to help me stay in the love state, free of judgments of others. I really “get” that what I say and do to others I am really doing to myself because we are all part of the same energy.
5) Higher Frequency/Awareness – I am calmer – I seem to be much more aware of the “earthly dramas” that can occupy so much of my energy. After Deeksha I “notice” that I “witness” myself more. I am learning how to rise above it all by distinguishing the difference between “EGO” and “LOVE.” I can “feel” the difference. I can tell when my EGO is at work or LOVE is at work. My feelings are the key. Anytime I feel anxious, fearful, tight, upset, angry, I know it cannot be coming from GOD (LOVE)… it has to be my EGO or lower “self.” Thanks to Deeksha, I now feel like I am on a higher frequency and from that space I believe I have the power to redirect my own DNA and one day achieve enlightenment.
Paul’s reply: Thanks for this great email! You observed that your creativity was enhanced after receiving Deeksha. This is not unusual. Our natural talents increase as our blockages and self-imposed restrictions are removed. This should only get better and better as time goes by. Further, feeling true love and joy is another wonderful gift from receiving Deeksha. Finding your lost item with Bhagavan’s help is awesome. I too do this, and ask for other things as well. The more you use this facility, the more quickly it will respond to your requests. Go for it! The judgment thing will eventually fully leave you. You’re on the way to it now. Our judgments are part of what causes our suffering… I’m glad you’re moving ahead quickly. You have found a workable strategy to moving towards The Awakening (enlightenment). We know from recent research that DNA is not static (stationary-fixed); it’s dynamic (moving-changing) and that we can change our DNA by our thoughts and words alone. I’m happy for you that you are moving quickly though your processing towards your own Awakening. Keep after it. Be aware; be “the watcher” to what you think, see and hear. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you on your journey. Namaste.
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Paul, The Deeksha was really wonderful tonight. I moved some stuff that I had been struggling with for at least two weeks. What a relief. Thanks so much. Love…
Paul’s reply: Glad to hear you had a shift in the direction of relief. Hang in there. Lots of folks are going through a lot right now… but it will pass. Think good thoughts! Namaste.
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We’re anxious to hear from you about your personal experience with Deeksha! To contribute send your comments to Paul Carlson at: mailto:paul@deeksha-dallas.com. Many Thanks to all for sharing their thoughtful contributions.